In memory of...

officially SICK!

2010-06-29T22:38:00.002+08:00

oh gosh, it looks like I got fever alrdy... ):
been sleeping the whole whole day today, but still so tired.
visual seems dimmed. oh well.
Sch tml, JAVA.
sigh.
.........
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guess what? I haven eat anything since I wake up.. if you don't consider mentos. hahahas
maybe i go cook something and get some goooooooood rest. :3

How suprising...

2010-06-29T05:03:00.003+08:00

well, I'm still awake... been like more than 24 hours? cuz i woke up yesterday at 5 in the morning.
Anyway, that is not important...
what important is the next two sentences... (expressionless: "ha-ha-ha")

It appears that I have fallen for you.. =\
I don't know why, don't ask me.

I guess I think too much and should get some sleep now.

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~Other Updates~
A2 is out... sigh... hope i can successfully finish it this time.

Mad+christ quarrel le... ): hope they can sort it out peacefully

mysql... java... data comms... it securities...

just hope I can score well for my MG this sem... with the overall combination of: 2A, 1B, 1C OR 1A 3 Bs
hahas...

I really need to work hard.... I made a promise, I hope I won't break it

gotta slp, night!(or morning)

2010-02-21T23:24:00.001+08:00

2009-10-15T14:59:00.001+08:00

someone lazer me in my left eye, another in my right eye.. FTW

2009-10-04T22:22:00.003+08:00

*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*
I am me
Yet not me
I am who I am
Trapped in the past
Living in the present

For my time
Stops at
2007.

Moving forward
Not impossible
Or
Rather should it be
That part of me
Doesn't want to move on

*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*~~~*

Will be on infinite hiatus at the moment

2009-08-13T21:52:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday, Biyuan.
Hope you have a good time today and like your gift.

You owe me 24 punches.
ciao!

2009-08-13T06:10:00.000+08:00

The process has already begun.
Time is ticking.
Not now, then when?

2009-08-11T09:02:00.000+08:00

I HATE that attitude of yours.

"Its too easy to do so I didn't do"

WTF

2009-07-28T13:29:00.000+08:00

I am SO SO SO distracted by your presence.

hope somebody end my life now

2009-07-19T14:33:00.002+08:00

1. No to Baileys mix
2. No to valet parking
3. Always bring aspirins along
4. cooperate with police raid

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I think I have a bit too much yesterday. Thum thum thum, something is hammering in my head. How I hate the pain, its the worse thing i ever wish. Sigh..
Gotta have my documents process very soon. The very least I will be assure that they will not have to carry the burden and there will still be something useful left for them. Max or choice? no idea, gotta speak with my bro soon.
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Take back my words, shall not change the skin as I think I would not even have the time to update regularly. Even if I do, i will always lost for thought.

Well, won't be updating anymore I suppose unless there is a real urge to.

so for now, bye blog.

2009-07-17T19:07:00.002+08:00

~大家,玩得开心点~

has been thinking for quite sometime whether or not to revert to my old blog skin or change a new one which are firefox friendly...will decide this tml

Today's rJ make me think, wonder and ponder...

This week has been quite a roller-coaster ride for me... maybe is due to the stress build up from the UTs that alter my perspective of things and causing my fuse to be extremely short theoretically.. I just feel like I'm not me anymore. Its like watching somebody's else life through the eyes.

I won't deny any of it and have already prepared for the worse case scenario. There's no use crying over spilled milk and what I can do now is to move forward in life, hope for the best and salvage what I can...*if possible, but I highly doubt so myself, but, will still give it a shot*
Life's too short for any regret, but learn from it.

Time fly fast and we are already at our second UT, soon, first sems will end and everything will change... why can't they make it same class for at least one year? why must things change when we all start to hit off well? the 16th week,UT3, is just roughly 1 month away.

Apology goes to all the "TRF" members for putting up with me.

Encryption

2009-07-14T23:33:00.000+08:00

next time I should encrypt certain post.

...

2009-07-14T21:53:00.003+08:00

Please show your empathy towards me.
And you should know how I feel.
If you didn't notice, I'm kind of quiet now in compare to the past.

&
I have to STRESS this
Its EMPATHY and not SYMPATHY.
I don't need anybody's sympathy

JFL

2009-07-14T13:14:00.003+08:00

me: This is the solution, i sent it to you le
K: orh
*K begins to read... *
"because david is still young...."
K: who is David?
me: (speechless and stun)
o.o
me: read your PS la...
Biyuan: who is David?(background)

and we broke into laughter, wahahahaa

对不起

2009-07-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

对不起
。。。

2009-07-13T08:15:00.001+08:00

Tears of human means stubbornness
Tears of ghost means love and resurrection

TMY, its time for you to wake up

2009-07-09T11:22:00.003+08:00

A promise... 1 year ago. A vow... 6 months back.
Something I need to do, HAVE to do.

Its time for me to wake up from my deep slumber.

I know I have failed you, not once, not twice but countless of times.
I am such a disappointment.
I am sorry.
But, its no use.
I cannot turn back time.
I won't make anymore promises as I will break them all.
I have tried, again and again.
But nothing seems to change.
Nothing.
I give up.
Forgetting everything.
And until now, my guilt finally caught up with me.
I want to make a difference.
I want to be useful.
I want to make you proud.
But time is ticking.
Every second counts.
I hope it won't be too late for you to see my achievement.
I hope not.

2009-07-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

distanced...

the gap is getting bigger

New earpiece

2009-07-07T21:20:00.002+08:00

I like my new ear piece! yay~
Actually, I exchange it with the one I originally bought yesterday.
(Yeah, yesterday after almost everybody went back, I head back into CWP again.)

Manufacturer's defect. Something is loose in the previous earpiece. Actually I can screw it back de.. but what for? You purchase a new good and you have to screw the loose part together? It doesn't make any sense, does it? hmm
Good thing the exchange policy is in effect.

Tomorrow's UT 2. Time seems to fly by very very fast.
I have not finish my RJ and study for my UT yet.
I wonder what the hell am I doing.
I wonder and wonder...

*better finish my RJ before I sleep on my keyboard*

how I wish I am there to console you when you are sad
how I wish I am there to cheer you up when you are down
how I wish I am there to be your punchbag when you are angry
how I wish I am there to accompany you when you are always alone

you look so ignorant, like a new-born, unaware of the surrounding

susu's 21st!

2009-07-07T20:12:00.002+08:00

If everybody blog the same thing, what's the use of blogging? =D
(my lazy theory, ahahaha)

Fot more information about susu's 21st birthday..
plz go to>> Escape button below, click on:
(Biyuan, Beatrice, keshia and susu)'s link.

re-open

2009-07-02T08:17:00.002+08:00

school starts today. First impression after steping into the class is.. "woaha, so bright"
Can't really get use to waking up early in the morning again. hahas! It just take one week... one week to go lazy but it takes forever to get use to my usual punctual self. haha~ class is starting in 10 minutes time. =X

2009-06-29T12:17:00.002+08:00

I always thought you all are different from them, but no, all of you are the same... same scenarios, different people.
FML.

I have one regret, the only regret which may change my whole life.
Why didn't I. Why why why...

late for the meetings.

2009-06-23T11:34:00.003+08:00

If you don't care, why should I be the one caring?

truth.

2009-06-22T22:28:00.005+08:00

I shall end my day with a post filled with certain things I feel.

Remember, I didn't force to to visit my blog. Contain some sensitive materials, please be advised.

Those who does not wish to proceed, please kindly close this window or redirect to other urls.

And so, I shall begin my post.

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I am a person who is very sensitive to my surrounding, be it in the world of virtual such as online, real life, personality or even any other minor things. Seriously those minor things too.

When things happen, it may seem like I don't care, but actually, I do. I may seem blur to you, but I know what's happening. Its true that I may not know the exact 100%, but I would not say any lesser than 80%. Don't ask me how I know, for I don't myself. Its something like a six-senses, gut feeling, hunch or whatever you called it. Also, through different medias, I am also expose to all these informations.

I tried not to know those things. Not because I don't want to, but because I feel loney and so left out after knowing them. I will go into a series of self-questioning on why is this happen and so on and things will go on spiral downwards. Ever see me moody before? I believe most of you have. That's the time when I start to ponder and ponder, over and over.

"The more things one knows, the more troubled one gets."

There's more things to write, but I think that's sufficient for my today's blog topic.

Last but not least, I believe I have mention this before. I treat people the way I expect them to treat me. However, most of the time, I don't get what I suppose to get in return.

In life, there's always up and down.
However,
I have enough of all this, and so I shall throw in my white towel.
I shall surrender, I shall admit defeat.
Defeated by my own life.

How pathethic of me.

2009-06-22T07:56:00.004+08:00

Certain things can't be changed.
There's a saying, treat people how you want them to treat you. I did. But things just don't turn out the way it suppose to be. It just don't.

Or should I say... it never will.
Just a wishful thinking.

I've read one of my friends' blog.
The blogger wrote:" keep the good friend, throw away the bad ones."

Now it all make sense to me. No point attempt to change them, they won't change.
Its just like how leopard never change it's spot.

Well, like buying a box of fruits. Don't expect to find all perfect ones, there are those rotten too.

2009-06-20T01:36:00.002+08:00

Exhausted.
Hopefully
I can update everything in the morning

2009-06-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

Its 11:59 now... 1 more minutes to the next day.
well, the laziness is getting the better of me. How I wish sometime in the future there will be "Voice-blog" so as to make things easier! haha. Lazy people with his lazy ideas. =D

I guess i shall only touch( really just a brief touch only) on the main happening today...

*RAMA's lesson- its so obvious, don't have to comment about it. xin li you shu.

*School's internet is damn slow.

*Some faci from the class nxt door suddenly come yelling at us - " I STILL HAVING MY CLASS, CAN YOU ALL KEEP QUIET?!?"
Damn that faci, don't scold the whole class when there's only some black sheeps. Didn't you take any Civil and Moral education during your primary and secondary school? People nowadays are just so... pathethic.

*CE talk about gambling! - this's the interesting part, using maths to gamble! It was relate to a real life story which turn into a movie name "21". The lecture was not quite bad, and i sort of enjoy myself there together with my "CE-karkies". Oh, one more thing to add on.. the people who attend the talk is like.. WOW, all goes down to one reason.. no rJ required. haha!

*Later lunch/dinner @ mac! it was my scandal's idea..Roxanne! she want to have mac but dun dare to tell us... silly girl. Of cuz we will accompany you~ we are TRF, remember? xD
well, I have mac spicy meal + upsize, just upsize for the sake of that blue glassware.... its BLUE! and thanks to Biyuan for tempting me near the counter ah....

*Journey to the bus inter/MRT...~ this the funny part..
"kerak kerak kerak" susu will say : i don't know X3
"kerak kerak kerak" Biyuan will say : kaopei X3
wahahaha~ everybody's having a good laugh, xcept for beatrice who got too much of it... =D
really enjoyable to hang out with all of them, the TRF.

*Finally bus back home!
1 hr on the bus is so.... nice
<3 it.

*next is HOME!
rJ + evaluation.. hahas den do my stuff and blog out this "crap".... not just any crap but a very valuable and important crap which i think i will lock it in my memories although i'm not good at memorising things.

cheers!

have an enjoyable day with all of you.
Thanks.

tired

2009-06-17T23:57:00.001+08:00

A hectic day, this is what I only remember.

drop dead tired

oh
I'm gonna get a very low grade for this particular UT
sigh

my bed's calling me now, off to sleep
*poof*

food! the main topic

2009-06-16T00:41:00.006+08:00

School reopen!
Lots of mixed feeling towards the first day of school after a 2 weeks of vacation. Felt happy, yet sad. Don't ask me why, somehow I just feel that way. Emotional huh? lols.

Well, not the first to reach the class.. anyway, air in the class was very *eww*. It was only until 8...yes, EIGHT....did they start the air-con, talk about power saving, saving gaia eh? First lesson of the week, Maths.. oh great. what a WONDERFUL subject to start a week with... well, comehow I manage to survive for the day. Not really in the mood to touch on academic areas so shall cut it short! *snip*

Food was the main topic of the day which I would like to highlight!

Beatrice brought bread while susu brought Oatah~ well, thats our lunch for the day today. Well, I have the most servings. *I believe?* yet I'm still the one complaining hungry! hahaha. And so we went down to Food Haven @ lvl 3 to scout for some food. Apparently, since we have already eat something, we all settle down for waffles as the "top up" for lunch. Later after school, we went to Seoul Garden for our dinner... *talk about saving money during lunch* hahahaha! Quite enjoyable day spent with them, appreciated their efforts for cheering me up too. But I'm bad at expressing emotions... I may look expressionless but I'm really contented inside.
I really want to churn out more contents.. but due to my short term memory.. things started to fade.. so can't remember the exact details. Looks like I'm showing symptoms of those elders. hahaha!

In one way or another, thanks alot, TRF.

我的中文一向来就不什么好，如果有字打错，请大家不要见怪。

我对你已经 100% 死心，再也不去管你了！我想了很久很久。。。值得吗？
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。
如果我说现在我在流泪，有谁相信？
虽然知道不会有读者来读我写的这个垃圾，但是要把“死心”给写上去，真得好难好难。。。

怀想起来，为什么你对其他人可以有说有笑，但是对我就很冷淡。。。每想起就叫人心酸。。。

AHHHH

2009-06-14T22:46:00.003+08:00

~DU LAN~

*******

@#$%^&*()
)(&%$#$&

W#E$%^&*(

#$%^&!@*!

@!&!@&!*!@

*Text censored due to small kids*

100 truth

2009-06-13T15:20:00.002+08:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Water.
2. Last phone call: Brother.
3. Last text message: Cherie.
4.Last song you listened to: Requiem for the Lost Ones.
5. Last time you cried: A few months back.

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: Nope, not even once.
7. Been cheated on: Yes.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Nope.
9. Lost someone special: Yes.
10. Been depressed: Yes.
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. black
13. blue
14. red

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend: Yes, not one but alot.
16. Fallen out of love: How to fall out when i'm not even in love?
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes, credit goes to susu.
18. Met someone who changed you: Nope, I'm still the old me. =D
19. Found out who your true friends were: Umm, I'm always true to everyone, but don't know how true are they to me.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Hahahaha! yeah, credit goes to all those bitches and bastards.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Nope, tell me if you want it. *Apply for opposite gender only* =D
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 95%.
23. How many kids do you want to have: Up to my wife, I don't give her stress. =D
24. Do you have any pets: Nope. I don't mind having a husky or a golden retriever.
25. Do you want to change your name: Nope, I like it.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Its just like any other usual day.
27. What time did you wake up today: 11:30am +/- 10 min
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: On cabal.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Reply. I hate being ignored. If you don't know certain things, say it and not just keep quiet.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: Just now, 5 minutes ago.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Interesting question. Choose the secondary school myself. But then, everything will have change and I'm not typing this quiz by now.
32. What are you listening to right now: Nothing. To be exact, the sound of fan blowing behind me.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Nope, don't have friend of that name.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: This pathethic world.
35. Most visited webpage: myrp.sg
36. Whats your real name: Meng Yuan.
37. Nicknames: Lawrence; my; xcira; teizu; there's one more, but I prefer not to say.
38. Relationship Status: Single.
39. Zodiac sign: Taurus.
40. Male or female?: Male.
41. Elementary?: Xingnan Primary.
42. Middle School?: Springfield Secondary.
43. High school/college?: Republic Polytechnic.
44. Hair colour: Black.
45. Long or short: Short.
46. Height: 175cm +/- 2cm i guess?
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yes.
48: What do you like about yourself?: Nothing.
49. Piercings: None.
50. Tattoos: None.
51. Righty or lefty: Lefty.

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery: None.
53. First piercing: None.
54. First best friend: Bann Vei and Zhen Quan. (Equally important)
55. First sport you joined: Badminton.
56. First vacation: None.
57. (There's suppose to be a question here...)
58. First pair of trainers: Not worth mentioning.
59. Eating: Not hungry.
60. Drinking: Not thirsty too.
61. I'm about to: I don't know.
62. Listening to: Nothing yet.
63. Waiting on: Not much to expect, so nothing.

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: Yeah.
65. Get Married?: Yep, if i can find that someone.
66. Career?: Depends on the situation in future.

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: can take both.
68. Hugs or kisses: both.
69. Shorter or taller: no preference.
70. Older or Younger: depends on situation.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both, if not spontaneous.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Both.
73. Sensitive or loud: both, if not sensitive.
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: Nope.
77. Drank hard liquor: Yeah.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Nope.
79. Sex on first date: Nope.
80. Broken someone's heart: Nope.
81.(Question here is missing again)
82. Been arrested: Nope.
83. Turned someone down: Nope.
84. Cried when someone died: Yes.
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yep.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: Yes.
87. Miracles: Sometime.
88. Love at first sight: Depends on situation.
89. Heaven: Yes.
90. Santa Claus: Nope.
91. Kiss on the first date: Nope.
92. Angels: Yes.
93.(and where's question 93 again?)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Nope.
95. Did you sing today?: Nope.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Never.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: 2003.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: Bad memories.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Yes and as well as no.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Will post, but its not really 100 truth... Some question are missing.

Lets see...

2009-06-12T17:58:00.003+08:00

For a start, lets say I'm back blogging after being on hiatus for 2 months~ hahaha.

Ler me stick to my very very old blog skin which I have backup before.
Can't seem to find the rest of my backup though..
Well, at least.. its still a not bad skin!
=D

Well, there's lots of things to update but I guess won't be so soon.

2009-04-06T18:33:00.001+08:00

He died on a Monday afternoon, 2:34pm

looking for trouble?

2009-04-04T02:10:00.003+08:00

somebody ask me go see smthing.

well, I've seen it and come up with a conclusion.

Are you looking for trouble?

well, that's typical of you.

Anyway, if blogging means to you that you are always occupied

let me tell you this

I don't even have the time to blog

Get it?

"One doesn't need proof to show it's existence"

now [F]--[K] off

and i sent you off with a smile

5 days

2009-03-20T22:27:00.002+08:00

How long have I last blog? Hmm, 5 days.
Feeling very lazy recently, oh well. Went to ppcc indoor yesterday for my archery practice, yay! Bus-ed there early in the morning, reach there at 9:30 in the morning. I tell you, the bus trip takes super long! Highway doesn't feel like a highway, traffic is going very slow, oh well, cannot really blame or complain since there's a heavy rain in the morning. HAHA, blame on my luck then. ^^
After reaching, went to have my breakfast in KFC. Have the twister (american style de), not quite bad. xD
Well, my training starts at 10 and end at 4, super tiring and yet satisfying. Not even a handful of people came, shiok sia, marcham like we book the whole facility to ourself. I think got fire close to 150+ arrows?
Oh, anyway, I finally manage to open two eyes when taking aim, yay! Another accomplishment I guess?
Hahaha.
well, going out early omorrow. xD
lalala

my head gonna crack

2009-03-15T23:18:00.002+08:00

recently feeling lazy... of what?

umm, everything. including blogging.

>.<

Haixx.. sian seh.

this morning got a very bad headache, went back to sleep all the way until 4.

check temperature... 38.7

sian diao le

till now then just recover a little better.

specs

2009-03-13T04:07:00.005+08:00

just can't sleep

you don't need to know why

oh, have I mention some of the major specs of my new laptop yet? =P

Intel Centrino 2 powered by Intel Core 2 duo processor T9550

(2.66GHz, 1066 MHz FSB, 6MB L2 cache)

Nvidia Geforce 105M TurboCache with up to 1791MB

(512MB dedicated Video Memory)

4GB DDR3

500GB S-ATA HDD

14" HD CineCrystal LED LCD screen

Dolby Home Theater Virtual SurroundSound System

CrystalEye High-def Webcam

DVD-Super Multi DL

802.11a/b/g/Draft-N 3x3 WLAN

Built in bluetooth 2.0

Running Vista Enterprise Edition

just love this baby. <3

2009-03-10T20:17:00.002+08:00

can't believe myself for choosing Acer!?!

FTW (no larrh, kidding)

of cuz i have choose the one with a better specs and die die with a 3 year warranty. =X

talk about typical singaporean... LOLS

gonna get my new bow real soon...xD

nope, its not the helix that i want, its nexus.

can't wait to try it out. =p

Choose one!

2009-03-08T22:39:00.002+08:00

Dell Lenovo Fujitsu Acer

Argh, can somebody help?

or least give advice on which is a more "solid" brand

T.T
what i have in mind is HP
.........

......

...

~but its EX~

...

......

.........

I'm thinking of Dell

however, i need some expert/IT PRO for recommendation

thanks

D.grayman is up!

2009-03-07T00:35:00.002+08:00

wah seiih, finally!

D.grayman 179 is up NOW!

WOOT!

super nice larrh

click HERE to read

manga crazy!

2009-03-06T18:06:00.000+08:00

To all manga fans~

The long awaited Bleach 348 is finally up this morning!

yay!
Also, D.grayman will be back by this week! woohoo!

Download my windows live messanger to a newer version.. now still trying to get use to it.
>.<

ciao~ gotta eat my early dinner

too tired to continue!

2009-03-05T23:57:00.002+08:00

looks like I gotta extend my MC for another day

Will only be back by tml

I promise

hahaha

oh btw, i'm laughing at you.

tired..

2009-03-04T23:51:00.001+08:00

MC for 1 day

back blogging tml

tough choice

2009-03-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

Today is another rainy day. damn.

In a few days time, I gotta go and register for RP.(happy)

So gotta stay at home do some research..ahhh!! choosing the right lappy for my future is such a pain!(and burn a whole in my pocket too) =X

no choice.. cuz required to get one on the day of registration and to configure it to suit the sch's network.

Have my lunch at Ikea ! yummy.

was planning to have poached salmon as usual, but change it to poached dory with cream sauce.

its good, but salmon still taste better. Poached salmon served at Ikea taste the best, trust me!

Was bored when return home, so browse through youtube.
This is a must see. Its amazing!

Enjoy!

Anyway, gotta go back catch my show, Batman begins.

Just for laugh

2009-03-02T23:01:00.002+08:00

hello people... as usual, its a rainy day today.(sigh)

went to visit my grandmother today.

She look very fraile and become very forgetful.

Sad to see her like that.

Gotta push all this aside.

Anyway, found some funny clip on youtube.

I introduce you.... Coach Hines!

Enjoy!

Rain rain

2009-03-01T17:57:00.004+08:00

Sunset outside my window sometime ago.

Part of my secondary school's field can be seen.

I'm sorry if the quality is bad. =X
Picture was taken with my 2 mega pixel camera phone.

but hey, its nice overall right? (don't deny it ^^)

The weather is kind of random this few days, bright and sunny for one moment and a sudden downpour the next.

speak of the devil... it started to rain again... NOW.

gosh, was planning to go out after this post... oh well...

The effect of global warming, depleting ozone layer? (ahh, geography again)

My secondary school geography teacher, Mdm Evelyn Ho always emphasis: "Global warming and ozone layer is TWO different thing."

ahahaha.. recalling her reaction during that time really put a grin on my face. =D

During our last few lessons before we graduate from our secondary school, she gave every each of us a small motivation card. She hand wrote it herself.

How nice of her.

Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence

2009-02-28T06:58:00.003+08:00

Enjoy this piece of music.
It will make you forget everything for a moment.
Stress, fatique and everything be gone!

today..

2009-02-27T23:57:00.000+08:00

Brain dead today.
I'm really tired
T.T
gotta sleep now or i will become a walking zombie

just rmb there's archery tml!

gosh
nightz all

oh btw, Bleach manga 347 is out this afternoon.
Do read it, the plot is getting exciting.

english english, where are you?

2009-02-26T23:44:00.002+08:00

In the past, i thought that language itself is something you will never forget once learn.

However, I'm very wrong.

For somebody like me who doesn't really knows my second language well enough, Chinese, was often frequently mislead by people that I come from an English speaking background.(lets take it that my chinese is weak, but I still pass my O lvl chinese kayys..) =X

However, they are wrong.
In fact, I speak mandrin everyday when communicating with my family member, chinese friends and sometime even blog in chinese.

Looks like I'm getting off track for a moment..

Anyway, due to the fact that without using english most of the time to communicate, it start to get rusty inside me. I got mix up with my tenses, grammar, vocab, sentence structure and even pronunciation!

Sad.. looks like I gotta brush up on my english all over again. =X

Oh, it has been raining almost the whole day recently... sigh..
The beautiful scenery outside my window is shrouded by thick dark cloud...

and talk about the humidity level... it takes extra half a day for clothes to dry.. T.T

err... someone need to use the computer for now.. looks like my time on the computer is up. Gotta wash up and sleep, tml need to wake up early.=]

*nightz all*

Will of the heart

2009-02-25T02:22:00.003+08:00

This music, there's a certain sorrow within it.

You can feel it if you empty your mind and relax for a moment.

Especially on a night like this, where there's no noise... peace.

Tears filled my eyes, rolled down my cheek.

Once in a while, things like this happen to me too.

Somehow, I feel like typing out this:

Heart of ice

Freeze with time
Warmth my soul
And set me free...

For I am nobody
Nobody knows me
I ask...
What art thou, nothing but void

I ask thee, who am I?

Nobody but memories

------------------------------------

Gotta go wash up and sleep, nights all

bow bow, where are you?

2009-02-24T23:13:00.006+08:00

The idea of getting a new bow excites me, much like giving candy to pre-sch kids.

I'm having a great interest in Hoyt's product.
The one that caught my most attention was not the latest GMX™(Gold Medalist X-treme), but Helix™. Helix, the only bow that belong to the TEC risers family that comes with Riser Shox. With 2 supreme technology fused into one bow... in my humble opinion, I would say its one of the best bow Hoyt has ever created.

For the limb, there's the CX and TX series. However, given a choice I would still choose the G3.

With such performance, it comes with a much larger price tag too. Well, till now its still out of reach for my budget.

Gotta stick to my old Agulla bow for now.

Seeking sponsership, anyone? =D

Its official!

2009-02-23T23:07:00.005+08:00

Well, its a busy day today... rushing to sch to do some paperwork.
Finally, I'm official not a student~! ahaha =]

For me, I think its quite a joy.. for certain other people out there, it must have been a joy too? am I not right?
Consider it as a "win-win" situation. [=
This is the outcome that we both wanted isn't it? Getting out of each other life and praying hard that we shall not cross path again.

No more thorns in the flesh and sore in the eyes eh? Well, that goes for me too.

Somehow in life, there's an ending to everything... it does including grudges, disliking, hating and even despising.
Ever since I signed the withdrawal form, I abandon all the negative feeling within me.
In an unlikely event that we shall somehow meet, I hope there will be no more conflicts and just pass by each other as though we're mere stranger. Fair enough?

Lets take this as an experience and learn from it to prevent any other possible conflict with other people in future. =]

Let the time rewind back 10 months where everything started...

(not intending to offend anyone)

*First few days in sch was crap, feeling really down back then... the feeling of depress was so overwhelming.

*Make some new friends... hit well at start, mostly from the "O" lvls, maybe is the feeling of "depress" we all experience brought us together?

*Nothing works out find for the first 1-2 months. Then bad news came, my grandfather have move on to another world.

*A handful of the O lvl people transferred out to private institution, got accepted into polys through appeals. So they left, leaving the rest of us who plan to retake or go with the fate in that sch. At that point of time, I finally got over with my "depress" state and accept myself for where I am.

*Somebody spread some nonsense about me. Was very angry at that period of time. That was my first experience of "twisted truth + badmouth-ing".

*Tried to make friends with other cliques (and clearing my name too), quite a success at first. But later know some people labeled me as a "hopper" who goes around just for the sake of gaining advantages. I was sad yet angry.. but no choice.. its their mouth. I merely wants to make more friend through that way.. why can't I?!

*settled down with one group and refrain from moving around anymore. I would say they are nice people, however things start to turn ugly very soon.

*New friend borrowed $300 from me (first time "lump sum" with somebody i know for 1 week?) , say return next week but was delayed.

*Chalet planning! But in the end didn't succeed somehow. It was planned by the same friend who borrowed the money. Attempt to collect the debt... failed due to "money was used in chalet booking". So I ask, the chalet book already? That friend replied yes, booked already. My another friend ask this friend the same question, he replied no, haven book yet. I felt that i am being made use of...

*It takes close to 2 months before I managed to recover my money. That friend destroy the trust I place. We start to ignore each other.

*After the holiday period, things have change quite alot.

*Fall out with that clique due to some personal reason. Feel cheated and made use of *again*

*Seek new clique, found one and start to hang out pretty well. They make me truly enjoy sch.

*Atmosphere in class changed... bad things happen.

*Took my stand to side one of the classmate, things got worse for me.

*Downward spiral I go.

*Studies not going as good as before, lost passion in accounting.

*O lvl retaker receive their result, I didn't retake but go "kapo abit". Found out that I can go RP officially now and not through the "appeal" way which i don't like.

*Polys suddenly become hot topics in different cliques, friends give advice when I got interest in going RP. Voice out about the teaching methods... the pros and cons. Mostly to cons.

*Went RP personally to "see see" and know more about it. Found out their system not that bad as discussed before.

*Decide to register for the course in RP through the JAE with my last year result.

*It was a success. Posted to RP with the course of my choice . Plan to withdrawal from current education institution to pursue my course in RP, I keep thinking and thinking... and made up my mind.

*RP is where I shall go.

*End of 10 months summary*

~my friends, do keep in touch. will be missing all of you~

wonderful day wasted

2009-02-22T19:53:00.008+08:00

hello, citizens of the Internet...

bow to me!
eh...
please?

wahaha, just joking. =]

It has been so long since i last blog! I've got so much to say, yet so little time spared... Can't remember much now though, so shall only blog about what happen today and yesterday. =X

Let the time rewind to yesterday...Saturday, 21 February.

I actually woke up early today, 5:30am ! Usually at this time, I would be sleeping like a dead log, hahas. I think its better to say that I am experiencing sleepless night on the day before. Or maybe because I am got the store key with me, so i sub-consciously undertake the resposibility and automatically woke up early? Do what normal ppl gotta do in the morning and step out of the hse at 6:15am if I still remember correctly...

Took bus to the interchange, have mac for breakfast and then head to sch for my Archery =]

How I wish every bus I took was so fast and efficient, the bus ride was only like.. less than 10 minutes to reach sch?!? Sound quite impossible eh.. but it's true. I myself was totally shocked! It doesn't feel like your on the bus but marcham like.. eh..err..umm...
nvm... I was on the bus alright, but with the speed of a taxi for the whole journey! that bus captain ROCK!
Reach sch at 7? A Saturday morning in sch is drop dead silence! you can really hear the rustle of the fallen dry leaves of the trees!

so head down to the store,do some area cleaning, moving of targets out to the field (its damn heavy!!) and set up a 30m target.
Assemble my bows and darryl's and took it out.
guess what? Everything take a wooping F*cKing one hour!

i was like... Zzzzz
First to arrive was Joanna, next Alvin and followed by Darryl.

then more ppl come streaming in...

It's such a fine weather larrh, how I wish every Saturday is like that wor.

Shoot total of 30+- arrows? then went to have a long break.

Coach then arrive lerrh.*dun care*
Nat finally came! after MIA for 3 months?LOLS

went somewhere to slack and return back at around 10 when the juniors start coming in.

then start to "express fletch" for one of the junior on the spot cuz SOMEONE didn't DO his job.... who arh?? ( I know you got come view my blog de la )

gotta help out the coach to the oversee the Jr in terms of safety and body form aspect. =X

damn tired la.. =(

close to 3 hrs wasted.

and finally there's the break I longing for.. yay! ^^

jio ppl to go with me to cafe one but nobody want.. =(

give all sorts of excuses la... "lazy, tired...etc"

Finally got someone pei me to cafe 1, guess who?

The super friendly onee-chan, Amanda! (and sometimes scary too T.T)

Happen to see wQ there, looks like her swimming session ended too.

Help one lazy *oink* to da bao his root beer back when we finish our drink... guess what we saw? nat's "gf" waiting outside cafe 1 wor... ahahaha actually want go back and tease him de but no effect wor... not fun. =X

some of us was like talking under the scorching sun la.. but lucky Darryl got bring his umbrella, least got some shades. xD

for some reason, I threw my finger tab at Elgin... HEADSHOT! later, he was like chasing me with his long stab la.. *police and thief* lalalala~ =X

*Fast Forward due to long and boring things *

ppl start heading back home le.. so am I. Was actually planning to do the shooting at ppcc tml de but nobody pei me... Darryl say he not going.. =X so cancel the orginal plan.

head home! bro come and fetch me. xD

Today! Sunday, 22 February.

Sleep till 11? ahahaha.... cuz not going anywhere le marrh. Doing spring cleaning at home and change a new blog skin! its totally uber cool la but it take a painstaking long long time to re-edit certain things. The weather was bright and sunny, the next moment it was raining heavily suddenly. Heng ah, never go ppcc today. ahahaha.. but even if I go, it might oso not rain there wor..
today is not a very productive day... rot at home mostly =X
so was sms-ing, msn-ing, youtube-ing and manga-ing to kill time.

Found some funny v.clip from youtube

Enjoy =)

guess what?

2009-02-16T23:36:00.001+08:00

LMAO

X-country

2009-02-12T19:52:00.003+08:00

didn't turn up for sch today but instead went for the annual X-country run... >.<
i would say that the run is not bad. =)
Yvonne came first and Joyce came seventh, was proud to have them as classmate.
Also, the overall winner for the inter-sch is non other than the business!
*hip hip huarry*

after that went to have our early lunch and "shopping" with classmate and friends~

~Cheers~
^^

different route we take

2009-02-10T21:12:00.001+08:00

I wish and hope just as much as you do, that never ever shall we cross path again

let see

2009-02-10T17:49:00.001+08:00

I'm addicted to yes, and I'm allergic to no. So is it yes or no ?

nice phrase eh? ^^

presentation

2009-02-09T23:21:00.002+08:00

pm presentation today worrh.. everything went so smoothly as plan =). the class was like not class.. little ppl attend seh( roughly 12-15 +- like that wor).. but nvm, maybe its better this way.

Thanks to Qiu for doing up the powerpoint. ^^

after the class stay back talk crap with my JIE, adnan and wQ =)

talk alot of thing, suddenly one oversea call came in.. area code +85 de wor.. pick up and listen to the other ppl say lanjiao wei. 1 minute and 50 second later, cannot tahan liao so kup her phone.. wahaha. she called back again but heck care to pick up. >.<

*talk talk talk*

adnan so being "assaulted" by... hmm you know who ler horr? that usual one.. ^^
now think back feel so guilty wor.. of watching him suffer... >.<>

jie and blac...opz, i mean jie and adnan was talking... then wq revising her iac and mii just slack there.. >.<

adnan was suddenly assaulted again~! seriously should have buy some popcorn to sch wor... =X

*police and thief*
~fighting all day long~

then dunno what happen next we have a marathon at level 3! first is police chase thief, aka cherie chase adnan... then become adnan chase mii! gosh.. due to some reason.. =X

wa! maybe its a good way to train up ba..>.<

took 38 and bused home.. >.<

~thats all~

ciaos

Bitter truth

2009-02-08T20:41:00.008+08:00

Put up a song, enjoy. =)

Should you need help one day, I won't be surprise to pass by you, without lifting a finger to help at all.

Because you have made use of all the people around you to your advantages, twist the truth and sow discord among them.

I simply despise you, your very existence - to the very core.

good news come early

2009-01-30T06:33:00.000+08:00

early in the morning at 6:27am
I got the message that i recieve last year
about the same format, but different content

SUCCESS
.........
......
...
.
Woot!

release time!

2009-01-29T21:59:00.001+08:00

8 am tomorrow
gosh
*panic*
>.<

close...

2009-01-29T00:00:00.002+08:00

1 more day
finally
.........
......
...
.

Apart from Black and White
I choose Grey

Count with me

2009-01-20T08:13:00.002+08:00

obviously 10 more days
precisely 240 more hours
about 14400 minutes
roughly 864000 seconds

i have never ever want something so much in my life before
let the fate decide

ahhh.... choooo!

2009-01-18T18:17:00.002+08:00

hmm, this weekend is super busy... lots of club activities and planning, projects and lastly CNY spring cleaning to do!

everyday sleeping less than 4 hrs.. GAA!
all this things has been going on for 1 week....T.T

annoymous-:
ip: 218.186.8.251
host: Starhub Cable Vision Ltd
descr: Singapore Broadband Access Provider

ah

2009-01-17T02:14:00.000+08:00

was super tired today.. just finish part of my project that is required later in the afternoon..
(its 2+ in the morning now)

~gosh~

been so busy this few days without any proper sleep, ah!!!
i am like a zombie.... T.T

gotta sleep after this now. =X

bad things

2009-01-15T15:29:00.006+08:00

I am not myself lately, blowing up almost every alternate days.
just like a suddenly eruption of a sleeping volcano.

So what is the main difference between an active volcano and a sleeping one? Its destructive power.
Active volcanoes erupt every now and then with little pressure build up within themselves, however for a sleeping volcano, the pressure build up within is being accumulated for a period of time...( until one fine day )... poof!

I got to apologize to those being swap and burn away by the wrath of the million degrees magma spew out of the sleeping volcano on the day 14 of January 2009 only.(yesterday nia)

YESTERDAY
i heard some awful thing with my two ears, (my ears are perfectly fine) they have to say it so LOUD.
just because of your regular sitting arrangement is being taken by *other people* , does that give you the right to use a more rude language to talk about them?
come on man, its just a place.
who ask you to come late for class yourselves?
there is NO permanent sitting place or any RULE saying to sit at the same DAMN place.

even you get along(or acting) with some of the *other people* you still say things without processing your words with your damn brain. who is the "double-head snake" this time?

After seeing this not happy liao right? want tell whole class right?
don't come humji larrh, if you got the gut to say, make sure you got the gut to back your words.

WHAT I SAY IS THE ABSOLUTE CRUEL FACT THAT YOU HATE.

TODAY
next time use your own locker please, you don't have to use your leg to force the lock to lock. The locker is not register under your name when jean koh alocate them, should it at anyone time be broken, is ME being responsible for it - i have already say what i want to say today, maybe you just never hear when i say it on the way into BCM class.

it happen again..

2009-01-12T18:28:00.002+08:00

gossips are bound to spread...
i heard enough, and one fine day i shall confront you.
take this as a warning.

keep this in mind....

2009-01-10T18:38:00.003+08:00

Rank is what you GET
Respect is what you EARN
Don't you come and overstep your authority and ignoring all orders given.

hor hor...

2009-01-08T19:52:00.001+08:00

你没做错，为何怕人家说？

Sunday!

2009-01-04T15:46:00.002+08:00

Cloudy sky, gentle breeze
it's certainly a fine sunday today..
this the first post for the year 2009 ^^
and also the first post before school starts tml T.T

oh well... recently been busy with my club activities after the seniors and the old committee step down. I've been honoured to be elected as the vice-president! Didn't really expect that to happen too. CCA fair '09 is round the corner.. been busy preparing for it...
oh well, gotta run now.. just hope tomorrow is a brand new day, brand new start.

Last day of the year.

2008-12-31T23:40:00.000+08:00

20 more minutes till 2009.
ah... time to say goodbye to 2008.
time files...fast.
still remembering the last day of last year...
if feel as if its yesterday.

i'm missing someone badly now

>.<

it has been long since my last post...

2008-12-30T17:13:00.004+08:00

2008, comming to an end...

2008, a year of sadness for me...

2008, a year of not my true self...

2008, a past i shall not bring forward...

2008, goodbye to you.

I'm, and will still continue to learn more cruel facts of life, till the day i breath out my very last breathe of air.

Thats life.

People around me mention about things like "forgive and forget".

I will try.

and hopefully I can do it.

lost.

2008-11-20T16:33:00.002+08:00

power failure while changing skin.. -.-"
Blogger auto save my uncompleted Template...
thus i lost everybody's link.
Tag to be relink back. tyvm.

tomorrow.

2008-11-18T21:50:00.003+08:00

its 19/11 tml.
i still remember it.

happy birthday to you.
wish you luck in everything you do.
i mean it.

9th.

2008-11-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

15 Nov, Saturday

Competition today, pol-ite at Singapore Poly.
woke up early at about 4.30 in the morning.
washup, pack up, and off to meet fauzie in the interchange.
mrt all the way to Dover, was dozing off on the train. =X

reach there set up bow, change to team shirt and mix around with the west people.
their female captain fierce sia.. -.-"
got my detail number, 10A. sharing board with mii was a guy from TP.

(blah, blah, blah)
(shoot, shoot, shoot)

results are out. ranked 9 with score of 298.
beside mii that guy got 294.. =X

fellow team-mate zhongbin ranked 7 with score of 305.
good job. xD

this marks the end of my novice class competition.
next stop, standard class.
JIAYOU (=
reach home dead tired.
-day end-

16 Nov, Saturday

Today.
wake up early again around 5.
prepared to go training at PPCC.
yay, finally got rid of the novice class, now can use metal bow le.*happy*
reach there 7.
move target board myself.. =(.. nobody help mii.
later.. darrel reach liao, lastly followed by zhongbin. only both of them come out of all the ppl i sms. grr
(stupied dexter.. say don't want come will sms den nvr.. -.-")

attatched clicker to my bow,yay~
*clap clap*
hard to sustain and get a constant full draw up to that length.. =X
now i know shooting with clicker on was really tired.. T.T
but quite enjoys it too anyway..

we all pack up and went off at 11.30.

tml's IAC test. good luck to myself.

i will prove to you that you made the wrong choice.

help.

2008-11-14T21:19:00.002+08:00

Tell me i'm WRONG please.
SCOLD me,
BLAME me,

FLAME me,

tell me i'm just being too sensitive.

tell me i'm just ASSUMING all that.

PLEASE

you are like trapping me in a glass jar.
I can see what's outside,
yet I can't join.

The torment within my soul,
its just too great.

what have I done to deserve all this?

TELL ME.

and only you can...

please, release me from all this pain

straighten things out.

2008-11-14T06:56:00.003+08:00

i didn't know they are celebrating it yesterday.
really didn't know, beause nobody told me.
didn't they mention its held in 17/11?
somehow, they bring forward it.
without telling me.

i feel really sad and disappointed.
have they cleanly forgotten about me?
perhaps, perhaps.

now let me think back.

the days during "ofa" time.

why are you so kind back then?

now i realise that,

you are kind only to my computer knowledge,

not me.

am i being made use of?

now that i have no value left*,

you literaturally "kick" me out.

or should i say,

you distance away.

*because i sucks at IAC

Tell me i'm wrong.

please.

i'm a human too.

don't treat me this way.

all ends here?

2008-11-14T06:49:00.002+08:00

how i wish there's 48hr in a day.
well, i got something to highlight out this pass few days.

IAC test. i flunk em. 3 times in a row.

*clap.clap*
xD

i'm such a failure.

BCM delay to next week.
more time.
*clap.clap*

still a failure.

team building workshop by mindpower.
no class.
*clap.clap*

what kind of student am I?

traitor.

2008-11-09T05:52:00.002+08:00

am i not clear enough in my previous posts?

you are one big time faker.

no wonder other guild members warned me,

but i am foolish enough to believe in you. damn you.

i swear i'm going to tear you into pieces if i meet you again.

...

jerk.

you are a sinner.

2008-11-09T01:25:00.001+08:00

don't you come talk to me again.

I have enough of your shit.

2008-11-06T00:23:00.003+08:00

i have enough...
looks like you want to blow up the matter and make it worse.
you want to play? i will certainly play along with you.

Let me tell you,
I see with my own two eyes.
I hear with my own two ears.
I feel and judge with my heart and mind.
and don't you put words into other people's mouth when they didn't say it.

still not happy?

i'm open to confrontation at any point of time.

FUCK YOU, to WHOEVER it may CONCERN.

ONCE A FUCKER

FOREVER A FUCKER
YOUR LIFE IS FUCKED UP
DON'T GET MINE FUCKED UP TOO

NO ONE LOVE A FUCKER

AND SO GOOD BYE FUCKER

LASTLY, YOU ARE A FAKER TOO

oh, remember, you are the one who come read this yourself. i didn't force you to.

you reap what you sow.

2008-11-04T21:18:00.003+08:00

what cause such a drastic change in you,

that you are not the friend i once knew.

you play with people's feeling,

making them pity for you.

how pathetic of you,

to resort to such

underhand

tricks.

.........

......

...

Qoooooo~ xD.

2008-11-04T21:02:00.003+08:00

Qooooo~ i'm change my blog song~ Kuuuu~
^^V

yay, tml no IAC cuz K's busy with something else.. get to go sch late~ woot`, sch starts at 10 for mii tml, and it end early too, at around 3~ Qoooooo~

gotta go catch my weekly dose of manga and anime~ ciaos~

oh btw, wQ, get well soon.

ALERT.

2008-11-03T22:45:00.003+08:00

Warning, a faker spotted

Qooooo~

everybody please be alert.

i want nobody to get hurt again

regardless of who you are

i swear

and please, i'm trying to keep my cool now, one more nonsense from you
and i might just blew up

i say it, i mean it.

DO TRY ME & I WOULD GLADLY SHOW IT TO YOU

damn, why must you be like that

The worse experience.

2008-11-03T22:39:00.002+08:00

PAIN

PAIN

!!!!!!!

its painful larrh, seriously.. T.T
and no, i'm not angry with you at all

Qoooo~

disappointment.

2008-11-03T08:50:00.002+08:00

it has been long since i last updated.. well, basically was quite busy with alot of things. well, let me try to recall all of them if possible.. =X

30 october, Thursday

didn't attend school on that day. have a terrible headache, migraine attack i suppose... woke up early, at 6 due to the pain. vision was blurr, and my sense of balance isin't working very well. went back to sleep.

wake up at 3.30pm. pain still there went to see doctor for my medication and hopefully a mC too.
and i got it! xD
doctor prescribe mii some ulu ulu medicine.. =X

31 october, Friday

K went through new topic, Depreciation.. =X sian diao liao lor, new topic. lucky i find it ok-ok de.. =X
after tt is BCM. Koh release us early. yayy! xD
den den ltr went out walk walk and eat for lunch with ah jie and group~
Alex jio for basketball~xD so went down with adnan. LOLS...
2 Noobs 1 Pro + 1 kiddo who play like a pro~ =X

went back rech home abt 4:30pm~ shower le, see my bed den drop dead asleep.. until 9 + i suppose? then went online Playparkforum radio camp there~ Qooooo!

1 november, Saturday

didn't sleep whole night.. was listening to ppf-radio... lols~ >.<
set off for my trial..
(blah blah blah)
(shoot shoot shoot)
result are out, my SC got 307, first trail got 279, now got 270.. =(
i am damn sad la~
coach says i look sick.. i'm really sick.. =X
T.T

2 november, Sunday

which is yesterday.. was completely rotting at home. =X

3 november, Monday

today! not much really happen since i just woke up not long ago~
but one thing is that, sch starts late today at 12~ wee~

overall stress.

2008-10-29T00:11:00.005+08:00

if you are expecting a "5 day post", forget it.
1) i can't remember
2) i'm god damn tired
3) i'm too busy to even try to recall em.

so this post gonna be short.

classroom atmosphere is weird, not as harmony as before.. =(
actually thats everything for class.

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after school today, went to see my dearest Jie, Cherie. xD
she's sick la, =X when we reach there, it was almost her turn to see the doctor le, she was accompanied by her girlfriend name.. umm.. err... ming yan(correct hor?).

den den den later see someone familar... wearing TPJC uniform.. O.O its liwen from my sec sch la... i can't believe i actually called out her name while i am in my sch polo.. T.T 丢脸 sia.. =(

catch up with her to chit chat abit, was glad she didn't really look down on me because i'm in this college. but how coincident was it for us to meet in the polyclinic >.<

den talk alot of things...
想当年。。。
(LOL, shall not speak of them here)
found out she got back injury.. =(
LY, do take care alright? dance maybe your CCA but still, take good care of your health.

went back to accompany cherie they all den one more of her girlfirend "pop" out... evangeline if i'm not wrong? ZzzzZzzz lunch later....

(blah blah blah)

oh btw, since when TM become trademark? =X kekekeke

TM walk walk talk talk.... evangeline bite me! grr... and when have i become her pet? o.o

oh ya, poor adnan.... as expected again... but you have to..." Get Use To It" hahaha~

Cherie did something "WOW" .. she use lighter to.....

http://www.darmuis.blogspot.com/ (visit for more info)

its my turn later when he left.. and as his substitute, i have to go through what he has.. but not that worse T.T

(blah blah blah)

den, at some point of time, i am dozing off while waiting.. ZzzzZzzz
as expected, craping =X

later...
went starbucks do my accounting la... drank 2 venti~ T.T
i'm dying!!!!

took bus back and blog. i need to practice my final accounts NOW, do my BCM ppt and study for tml's MPS test!
ARGH!

downward spiral.

2008-10-22T10:12:00.002+08:00

currently in sch now... starting my elective class, MPS now.
sigh, everything is not going much as expected at all. nothing seems right.. damn.. i screwed up my accounts during K's lesson.. TPl is seriously killing me..=( i know nothing at all, or should i say nothing can get into this usless brain of mine. i'm such a let down..

oh, and this MPS is so like secondary sch social studies.. i think i have choosen the wrong elective..T_T

heard that there is a MPS test later on chapter 1+2.
and the teacher is "kindof" talking crap now... seriously.. although what he said is relevant, it IS exgerating~

signing off now, or he might notice and get piss off~
ciaos~

pain.

2008-10-21T23:34:00.001+08:00

got a few waves of headache attack. damn.
maybe i will update more 5 days later... the "5 day posts"
xD

damn... it hurts alot.

T_T

not as good now.

2008-10-20T20:38:00.009+08:00

its another 5 days since i last post. shall ii keep a habbit of having a 5 days delay per post? maybe maybe.. let me think back...
oh ya, please take note that some of my post IS super blunt. because i believe that friends ought to know how each other feel.

15 oct, Wednesday

The day which i post about what happen 5 days before.. haha. not much really happen that day.. so i can't think of ANY at all. except for the beginning of another nightmare.. IAC. sound short right? yeah.. short but deadly.. the first few weeks i guess will be about trading,profit and loss and balance sheet.. damn. K did give out work to do... Qns on pg 5,6,7. but i can predict that i won't be touching on it. Oh, there's another short and deadly subject.. BCM.. gotta explain on the topic " integrated resort" .. sigh... a sucide move.. choosing a topic which i have totally no confident in.
Oh, on a brighter side, tml's a holiday! er.. because tml's lesson cancelled! woohoo.

felt loney, i don't feel the harmony anymore.

16 oct, Thursday

wake up damn late. i have no idea what really happen on that day.. everything just either passes too fast for my old and rusty brain to remember or its going so slow that my brain doesn't comprehend. but what i know is that it has been long since sch reopen i have slept that well that day. =)

17 oct, Friday

its friday! happy mood! cuz class release at 12. yeepie. however, someshop beside mac(at kfc there) got burn't down. hope nobody's hurt.. =(. more sad things..first lesson is IAC, whois K's work i didn't do. =X seriously not i don't want to do but i don't know how to. lucky she didn't point mii out. for BCM, i was not prepared.. lucklyad and ss,gr,jo have to demo the "presentation" which takes up much chunk of the time. after that went for my training at yishun college central due to my upcomming trail. met minbin on the 3rd lvl, he didn't bring his barang.. -.-" went down tgt to lvl 1 to meet darrel. omg. he cut his hair until like skin head larrh...
take "bus 2" den train.. halfway there, it starts to rain HEAVILY!!!!! coach called.. change of location to PPCC indoor. although the range there is 15m.. but its least there's air-con and is cooling.
KFC for dinner and mrt back home ltr.

thinking back,
i notice something..
am i thinking too much?

18 oct, Saturday

wake up early, meet up with my team at tampines inter at 6am... i know.. damn bloody early. bus-ed 969 there and wait for the remaining of the team (include supporters as well). Our team was the first to reach.. LOL.
after all my ends, the total score is announced. crap.. i didn't do as well as expected.. during the SC, i got 307 and got a bronze(3rd).. now i only get 279.. but strangely.. i still top them emerging the first in ranking.. was quite shock actually.

Cherie jie den called mii.. asking mii to go IKEA! lol. later promised to go but didn't... sorry jie, was too tired la... i actually slept from 4:30pm to the nxt day 7:30am! xD this shows one thing, i am damn tired~!

19 oct, Sunday

Continue with my "yesterday's post", wake up at 7:30.. got feverish feeling. check the temperature, its read 38.6.. sigh.. fever again.. i am so fever prone!! =( hope monday is a better day.

so that day rest at home... den my bro and mum want go IKEA ( coincidence worrh) den jio mii..
-.-"

back tampines and jio my brother come down TM eat eat walk walk. LOL. in the end, we arcade for 1 time and eat mac for dinner. back home resting after that.

I really miss my classmates..

...and that feeling is still there
friendship that starts to drift away

20 oct, Monday

not meeting up, went sch alone.=( first lesson, BCM. saw sJ &YD. was informed that Koh was already inside.. nvm abt it.. so sit outside read newspaper. went in ltr... the class was like still .. empty? =X slowly ppl start streaming in larrh.. filling up the class...
den den..

group work..
getting into group. ( the facial expression is like sian liao when I asked, so nvm le..T_T ) i feel so left out larrh, the second time i felt it in my life.. first was when i'm still sec 1, 4 years ago.. sigh.

so went to the other side of the class.. join in Adnan's group. the atmosphere was totally different. i feel very much more... welcome.there's somebody... i can't really recall who... ask me one question... " why you from one side of the class come over here ".
I am beyond my words.. i don't know what to say... i felt really sad at that point of time.. and was wondering to myself.. " am i abandon by a group that now i have to seek refuge here?". i really feel super down and sad larrh..

IAC later. K pointed mii out to do Qn 1 on "G Able" which i don't know how to do at all! sigh...

I can't get anything in my mind during the whole of K's lesson.. the previously thing still occupied my mind. sigh.. went in and out of class quite a few time... still moody..
PM class finally. not many ppl come. class ended at 4:10pm

now i no mood to type out the content for PM class lerrh.. sigh.

tml new day. go sch alone.
hope there's somebody.

end.

seriously, friendship is drifting apart.

please tell me i'm wrong.

so far so good.

2008-10-15T23:01:00.004+08:00

it has been 5 days since i last blog, just dun have the feeling of logging in and recount for everything.. haixx but one thing's for sure, life still go on no matter how bad it might already be. Cut the crap short, lets see what can i remember.. hmm.
last week i am sick!! got fever.. i guess is too much of parsa malam, stand too long under sun and most importantly, lag of water! (our body consist more that 50% water worrh )...
Anyway...

11 oct, Saturday
went training as usual, but due to the fever, didn't really train up.. just fire off a couple of arrows ( sorry alvin, letting you train alone) and was sitting there chit chatting with the rest. i played the podcast of Muttons at Midnight about valentine( quite some time ago ) and everybody was laughing like crazy xD xD.
tick tock tick tock... soon its time to pack up. after that went to TM for lunch with Joanna, was crapping with her all the way xD. Found out something, guess what? we both have the same surname! although its spelt differently in english. that makes us in the same family tree! woot! guess what again? a coke promotion ! free bottle of coke zero ^^. and all thanks to Joanna for helping mii getting it. not really as nice as normal coke but who care that much since its free.. LOL. have long john silver for lunch, yummy. later we went to time bookstore (not mii, friends should know i don't read xD). something caught her eyes, a book. if i not remember wrongly, its already the 5th book of the series. in the end, got her the book as a belated birthday gift. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY girl, will celebrate with you next year punctually. xD. head home after that. really enjoy that day even though i am sick.

12 oct, Sunday
There's training today but didn't go. my fever shot up again. sigh.. hate it man.. almost sleep for 24 hours that day =X. its first day of school tomorrow and i'm still sick! gosh.

13 oct, Monday
First day of school! did feel a little better after resting for so long yesterday. start the day early with a "suppose plan out plan" of having breakfast near simei mrt. Andy spend $8 on cab thinking he will be late.. LOL. school's ok, but was feeling very bored. 2 good news! i got my elective i wanted (or not really) and we got a new classmate! his name is Alex, previously from QA ( i think?) The first day was seriously boring like hell T_T. each break between classes was like so long...partly because teacher release us early. Guess what i did? i give a 99 miss call to my "beloved jie"

14 oct, Tuesday
hated going school early in the morning. i am going so hate tuesday and wednesday for this term. lesson start early damn early and ended damn late.
during my elective class, mps.the teacher pointed me out (in the lecture hall) for... wearing inapporate school uniform. like what the hell? even my class adviser didn't say anything about it.. Zzzz. next is tutorial, a different teacher. was like dozing off in his class.. =X.
After class, went to collect some debt with wQ. and to crap with that guy, he didn't turn up.
went to find Adnan and cherie Jie at eastpoint.

An interesting conversation between them-:
Cherie: Adnan, ask you something.
Adnan: Yes Cherie?
Cherie: You want your dick or balls.
Adnan: (Stun)

i am laughing all the way.xD
long john for lunch! yummmmmy! also bought a wristband through a donation of a dollar for the "world hunger relief week".

15 oct, Wednesday
Will not update today's post.. too tired... =(
ciaos ppl. xD

Sleepless night.

2008-10-10T07:30:00.001+08:00

Finally, its done. Hello to blogger and goodbye to wordpress. With a new blog skin too.^^V
How's it? Not as bad as I suppose it would be, the least still presentable, LOL. Its 7:29am now, gotta go rest after a whole night of editing,changing and moving of my blog. ( I know I know, why take so long right? I'm a "blog-idiot" guy. (="